Admittedly, I am usually a top. I tend to like DOING more than being DONE.

Why? I’m not sure. Reactions turn me on, and arousal is very psychological for me. My body itself just isn’t that sensitive. But my mind rings like a bell for power imbalance.

But sometimes…just sometimes…I like to bottom.

Am I ever submissive? Once in a while, I like to play one. It can feel good to give up control. But at heart, I know that I’m really in charge, and that’s what feels right to me.

But yesterday TRS was feeling toppy, and I was in the mood to be tossed around. I always like being grabbed and gripped, even when I’m the one running the show.

This time, he also put his hand over my mouth.

Oh, my. That was a fun sensation. I don’t know if anyone had ever done that to me before. I quite liked it. I felt rather stripped of my power—momentarily. And I liked my moans being muffled into his palm.

I could get spanked all day if I asked for it, and that would just be bottoming.

Does it mean that I’m submissive? No. But it can be fun to pretend I am once in a while. Just two sides of the same coin.